Then, several things disrupted our class time and the kids got silly and I got crabby and they couldn’t focus and I felt impatient and instead of calling TIME OUT, I got angry, threw down my book and yelled at them. Then I left the room to take a deep breath, went back in and we were all tearful, again, as we regrouped and I apologized. My kids are so bright and capable – I have high expectations of them. Every day isn’t going to be a stellar one and it is my job to pay attention and adjust, take a break and find a way to exhaust some of their energy. That’s the beauty of homeschooling – that we CAN change directions when needed. Some days I lose sight of our purpose and get bogged down in schedules and checklists. Those days, giggling, messes and mistakes have no place in our educational plan. From here on, I plan to make a U-TURN when anxiety/energy starts to build. We’ll go for a nature walk, bake some cookies, dance to Hairspray songs….or just stop and breathe. Jesus, hear my prayer.
My Day of Asking Forgiveness
Today has been a long day. We got a late start and instead of reading our next Bible chapter, the kids wanted to hear about the crucifixion. So I jumped ahead and read about Christ on the cross. We were tearful. They have asked repeatedly to watch “The Passion Of The Christ”, but I think they are too young. I am too young. It’s hard to witness and I don’t think they are prepared for the graphic reality.